Sometimes I fear of my own capability
To smile and laugh and dance and sing
Of my happiness, to other people.
While my thoughts are succumbing me
Into a place where sunshine could not reach.
I fear of the times I flew so high above
Because I know how excruciating the pain
Will be when I fall, harshly, upon the cold ground.
I fear of the person I turn into
When there is nobody around.
I fear of the voices that will fill the comfortable silence
When everybody has left the room, door shut to a close.
The feelings of not being able to embrace happiness anymore,
Scares me to the point I cower, in tears as wounds
Decorated my body like the jewelries I used to cherish.
A lot of things seem pointless now
And my strength – my will to breathe again, slowly dissipates
Gone, with the silent movement of the wind.
I reached my limit but He is there,
When nobody listens and nobody knows, He
Comforts by blowing faith that soon lit up my frozen heart. He
Answered my request that I made through quiet prayers. Now I
Am standing again and breathing like I used to. I
Am able to smile and laugh and dance and sing again
Without the fear of falling from high above
Without the fear of succumbing into sadness
As I believe that those dark times
Those dark, horrible times
Are what bringing me closer, nearer
To my Most Merciful Creator.
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